My heart

I went to the park tonight with my now 2 year old son Benjamin. While we were there there was an older girl who was talking to me asking alot of why questions. My son sat there and listened to us chat and warmed up to the her and the other kids on the playground sooner than he usually would. Then another young girl came over and the girls decided to play a game of hide and seek. My son ran to the area where they were playing and when everyone went to run and hide he ran too. Well the one little girl said to him "not you - you can't play with us." He didn't really understand what she was doing/saying but I did. I cannot even begin to express how much it hurt my heart. Not because he was upset - like I said he really didn't even realize it but because had he been old enough to understand he would have been hurt. It broke my heart. He stood there for a second not sure what to do and I ran over to him and said "ready, set, go" and he started running after me and Sammy. I was really upset with that little girl and really upset with her parents as well. Had it been my child I would have said something to her about her manners and rudeness. They however did not say a word. Is it just me? Do I expect too much from them? I don't think so. Surely we have to teach our children about being kind to others and not hurting someone's feelings?

Then I started thinking about all the future times down the road when my son is going to be hurt, get hurt or maybe even unintentionally be hurtful. I'm not sure who is going to feel it more - him or me? Everything he does affects me so deeply it blows my mind sometimes. Will I be able to handle this? I wish I could make it so he would never have to feel any kind of pain but I know that is not possible. I sincerely hope that God gives me the strength and the right ways to comfort him when I need it.